Peculiar thoughts of odd whimsy

When you live your life with a mental disease, it is almost like having a second person inside of you... 

There is this one person that is focused, resonable and healthy, while there is another sort of crazy, loopsided person that has completly turned right into wrong and vise versa... 

Presently, I am quite confused over the current situation of what I am going through in my life, and therefore I am finding that every single day becomes an utter pain to endure....

I feel tired from simply thinking, which might sound far from as exhausting as it currently is... 

It kind of feels like I am being pulled in several directions at once, because my head is telling me to do this and that, and not this and that because it is wrong, but acctually it is right, but still totally wrong :S

Not only am I experiencing getting worse, thinking of my health and all, but a depression is growing inside of me, that just won´t let go... It is all very silly and confusing, and mostly I just feel like everything is one big movie and that nothing is for real... like a dream of some sort... not one of the really good ones, sadly... 

It is partly due to the fact that I am extremly bored and have far to much time on my hands...

Yesterday, my sister , who is home for vication, gave me something which I believe might be a vintage belt! 

I quite liked it, and thought of an outfit almost imediatly, so I had to try it out today ^^ 

Shiro elegance

Shoes: ???

Tights: Amazon

Skirt: H&M kids section

Belt: vintage

Blouse: Bodyline

Accesories: Glitter, H&M, Kreepsville 666

I quite like the details of this one :) The necklace really is a great contrast to the feminine and cutesy blouse, which gives of a creepy cute look ^^ 

I have another outfit that I recently wore to work, with the same skirt! It is very different, acctually one of my best fairy-kei atempts (in my opinion anyway xD) and gives off a totally different wibe,

 so I decided to post it also:

 Playful Lilac

Slippers: (only worn while at home) H&M

Tights: HolleyTeaTime

Skirt: H&M kids section

Sweater: Milklim

Accesories: Angelic Pretty, Chocomint, Milklim, Glitter

But really, these days I am so worn out that if I get out of my jammies it is really a miracle, so most days, I acctually just look like this, when I am at home...

( you can´t tell, but the sweater has wine-red letters that goes with the tights xP)

As  a kind of interesting add, for some of you, I can say that I finally managed to finish all of the pages of my comic! ^^ YAAY <3 I am so slow with things like that XD I was acctually planning to post all of the pages a week ago, but I forgot, since I was so busy with work and such >.< ughhh...

I hope you like the result!

(The text was just made up as I made the pages, so I appologize for the poor quality :S ehehe...)

I am otherwise really pleased with how it turned out, and proud to say
that my first comic pages made professionally turned out ok! ^0^ 

I would really, really appreciate to hear from all of you what you think about it :D

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 A couple of days ago was my last day at the library for the summer, and even though it felt good, it was almost a little bit sad walking out of there for the last time in a while ... I will most lightly work there later on, when they have the need for extras, but currently, I am finished. 

Yesterday, I also got my salary for the first 3 weeks of work and FINALLY I could order things again! ^^ YAAY! I am so happy about it :D I have been pretty much broke for a couple of months now
(I am not counting the hairdresser money, since money sat aside for a particuilar purpose
really is the same as being broke to me) 

Hopefully, I will hear from the shopping service I contacted about it very soon,
and quickly get my new taobao items :3  

 

I hope everyone is enjoying their summer vication, or the start of the new school year
(whichever it is for you) 

I don´t have any plans for now, other than reading "the hitchaikers guide to the galaxy" with my sister, and since we are just about done, it seems like the next exciting thing to happen won´t be until I get my packages, or letters from my penpals x3 

 

Thanks for reading! 

 

~ 3 days in comic book land ~

Today was the last day of the comic book course I attended this week! 

It was really great, and I had SO much fun ^^I have been looking forward to this all summer, and I were so exicted that something like this would happen at such a tiny place like this. It was a really talented and experienced teacher that lectured us (6 students in all). He had worked with a lot of great directors in Norway, storyboarding and such. He was also one of the regular people to sit in the commité of a very well known comic festival held in Bergen, called "Raptus"!

  I learned a lot of new things that will be super usefull for me in the furture, working with comics. 

(The signs says "Comic books and storyboards - auspices on paper", and the screen made the picture darker)

In all, it was a three-day course, and we all met up at 10 am every day, and went home at 4 pm.

On day nr. 1, everyone shared their comic idea with the teacher, and got some help developing a good storyline.

The first day started out kind of slow, we went through a lot of things that I allready knew (basics and such), and I felt kind of embarrased, since the girl next to me was reeeeeally talented and had a super idea for a comic. In this course, OUR task was to produce a 4-page comic, throughout the 3 days we worked, but since I didn´t have a "short idea" I was allowed to work with some pages from a longer series that I am planning ^^ 

The teacher told us what is important, considering angles, what scenes to prioritze when you make a story, how to catch the attention of readers, and how to best adjust a page to the general reading direction of a comic book. It was really inspiring, and great to speak with someone that really knew what they were talking about! And someone that acctually understood what I asked about, using spescial words and such xD

As time went, I felt better and better! ^^ On day nr. 2 I felt just about 200% better allready x3 

I got in chat with the girl next to me, who was also into manga and anime, and she was just SO nice! I felt realy terrible for envying her on the first day. We discussed series we liked, and showed eachother pictures we had drawn earlier! She is great at drawing boys, and I mostly draw girls, so our styles really differed!

I had a cat in my comic, so suddenly, she just pulled out a clean sheet and started doodling little cats, and I joined her x3 It was really nice ^^  She drew the cutest cats <3<3<3 I just awwwed all over them xD

(Another thing that was really great about the course, was that we got all of the drawing supplies provided! And lunch also ^o^)

On day 2, we also learned a lot about how important it is to have the correct layout on a comic! How different American comics are to french or japanese ones, and how we best could put the speach bubbles up to make it easy and understandable to read! ^^ 

We learned things I never thought about before also, like how the first page in a comic book should have a really big development panel that shows the surroundings, with few details, so that the reader can easily see what is going on and where, and so that its easy to read, which is important to keep the readers attention. 

He also showed us how three very talented and well-known marvel artists interpretation of a comic manuscript, and how they worked with it ! ^0^ we saw sketches, roughs and lastly finished results :) 

learning about different styles and layouts! ^-^

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I worked really hard on my "manga", and when day nr. 2 was over, I had allready finished 3 sketched pages! (I won´t tell you what it is about, only that it has a witch, and a talking cat :3)  My new-found friend had drawn two pages, but she inked almost directly, so she had still got a lot further than me ^^" Hers had the most beautiful goldfish ever o_o

Today, being the last day, we learned a lot about perspective and anatomy ^^ 

 He drew a lot of fun drawings of different superheros, with horizontal lines and helping lines to easily place people in perspective, but still correctly, so that they didn´t look off in comparison to other characters. 

This day, my friend brought TONS of helping sheets, like the one with the heads that you can see in an earlier picture ;) But with poses, feet, hands, more heads, eyes and loads of helpfull things! It was really great ^^ I was overwhelmed! 

She also brought a magazine with info about anime/manga/games that she allowed me to look through! :D We had a blast making fun of the ugly drawings, and telling eachother what we loved with the pretty ones xD

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I also showed her a book I have with clothing design and how to draw folds and such realistically on a body x3 

 (the teacher asked us to pay attention >.< uuuups, hihi)

I had to sit down and draw a seperate drawing of an old lady for the last page xD (Also, on the right is my storyboard/sketch to see what every page should look like and what it should describe in the story! )

The teacher told us about tons of interesting webpages to visit for buying art supplies easily and to get tutorials and such for photoshop! ^^ 

He also had a session where he hooked up his computer to photoshop and showed us how comic book artists that work for marvel colour and edit their pages! That was really amazing *A* He told us that these techniques where mostly unknown in Norway!

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( If you look really close, you can see the gorgeous goldfish she drew *A*)

I ended up with finishing one page intierly, with inking and all, but I still need to finish the three most detailed ones x3

So, to end this entry, I just want to say that I would do it all again in a heartbeat! It is one of the most fun experiences I have had! I think everyone on the course agreed that it should have been a lot longer, even though we had all worked hard and were quite tired! I know I stayed up til 1 AM almost every night, to finish some sketches and drawings for this >.< And one of the other ones even had to skip day nr. 2 until after lunch because she was so tired ... 

And lastly, I decided to show you guys all the pages I drew! ^^ 

On top, page one and two from the left, and on the bottom, page three and four :) 

(I will add more shadowing, speachbubbles and such on a computer!)

As you can tell, only page nr. 1 is inked ^^""" I took ages to draw that lightning with only a small marker pen @_@

Here is my favourite panels! ^^
(let me also add that most of these poses is the first time I ever drew! like the one below)

Sorry, I can´t draw shocked cats XD haha

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 Landed in a pile of trash!

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 Creepy old lady is creepy O.o

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 Seems like she got away though xD haha

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I hope you guys liked it ^0^  I very rearly have this much fun, and I never meet anyone else with my interest of drawing offline, so I was super happy about it ! XD haha

 Have you done anything productive lately? ^^

Now, since it is really warm here right now, and I am quite overheated O_o So I will take a walk to cool down ^^ 

Aloha! and thank you for reading ^^ 

Until next time!

Josephine