+ Magical year of 2014? +

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I realize that from now on, I´ll just don´t update my blog appologizing every time I do so... it makes me feel bad, it makes you feel bored, there is no point in it! To be honest, blogging will be hard because I have school and loads of homework to tend to + that I frankly don´t feel like it when I am depressed as much as I acctually am... I just realized though, that the year of 2014, I made a total of 18 updates in a total year!

Frankly, that is just not good enough... I mean, comparing to the year before, when I acctually wrote up to 58 entries throughout the year... we are talking about 40 updates in difference!

 

So, what is the point of this update? 

Well, I thought, I should update about the highlights of 2014, since that is something you should do when a new year comes around, ey? (even though its like a month ago allready ^^" haha)

thing is though, I can only find four events worth mentioning, that I blogged about!

1. Going to britain, seeing BBC, Harry Potter studio tours, Sherlock Holmes museum
2. Going to Scotland visiting my friend Peachie again
3.  Attending the lolita fashion show by Angelic Pretty in sweden
4. Attending the lolita tea-party by Angelic Pretty in sweden

...

and that is about it! 

I am so happy and lucky to have been able to have gone on all of those events, but its not really much to show, after a full year of events right?

Well... I then thought to myself,

"what is my standards of showing things on my blog?" 

it should be interesting, it should appeal to my "theme" and be interesting!

Easy enough, right? 

Well, the thing is, I am a normal human being (in a certain context haha) so life has its fair share of ups and downs! For me though, having been unfortunate enough to struggle with mental health issues on a daily basis, there is mostly downs... I get discouraged and feel like everything about me is boring or the like... but then I read a blog update about "becoming a better blogger" made by the wonderful blogger Kaila over at "the rainbowholic" (go follow her, she has the most inspirational updates, truly! <3) and she mentioned one of the things in her list being "to blog about your interests" and not having your goal be "recognition and fame". I realize that I, without intending it, have been a victim of this thought pattern... I mean, when I started out this blog, I wanted to create something fun and creative, where I could spread inspiration and publish about cute and happy things for others to read! 

Yet, as time went on, more and more of these "kawaii fashion" bloggers came along, and I felt a bit out of place... where I to join the crowd of fashion bloggers and play "safe" or do my own thing? 

I still don´t know the answer to that question, so all I can say is that my blog will probably be a weird hybrid...

Anyway, I now know what I want to do in 2015 with this blog!

I don´t know how or what it will become, and I am still feeling really bad about having made that list of coming entries that never became a reality, but I know one thing:

I will have more entries this year than the last one!

So, in the end I guess all I want to say is 

thank you for sticking with me! And thank you for being so patient,

I hope you will stick with me onwards as well! <3 

HERE IS TO THE FUTURE!

A new year, a fresh start?

 

Well, its time again to start a new year...

Last year, around this time, I was completely freaking out. I had a mayor depression around new-years, entering 2013, and I felt like time was running out. 

This year, I don´t exactly feel happy about the new year,
but I certainly don´t feel as panicked as I did back then!

Original as I am, I wanted to make a little post for you guys, but mostly for myself I think, with a small summary of the year that has gone by. It is easy to forget everything that happens throughout an entire year, especially the good parts, if you are predispositioned to be a bit....
ehm... negative, like I am :P hehe...

When I think back upon the year that has passed, I feel like I´ve accomplished nothing at all, but looking closer, I see that there are tons of things I´ve gone through and I´ve been on many an adventure in these past 365 days! 

Let´s get to it!: 

1. January:

I got a lot of sketchbooks for christmas the year before, so I sketched quite a lot during this first month of the year. Also I had a heavy depression on my shoulders....

2. February:

I started reading the infamous book "Lolita" by Vladimir Nabokov (very interesting read, would reccomend it if you are thinking about reading it!), and I dressed up during the weekends. My parents went to Scotland to visit my sister for her birthday, and brought back gifts for me! My first ever Adventure Time comic books! :-D And by the end of the month, I was interviewed by my local newspaper to talk about my style/ lolita fashion.

3. March:

My birthday! I turned 19 at the very same day my mom was put in to hospital (since they discovered she had a cancer–tumor). Luckily they managed to remove it and after a heavy reasurence-cure she is as good as cancer free :-). Other than that loads of things happend in march. I got contacted about being in a documentary project involving a couple of handfulls of teenagers in the whole of Norway, talking about my life, interests and everything like that (the project itself didn´t start until later though). I also bought a huge graduation package from one of my top idol-groups "Pinku Project" (where I was so lucky as to win a special-price poster!) that decided to get seperated around that time because of the fact that they needed to focus on school ;3;

4. April: 

The month of April was a fairytale through and through! I went to Scotland to visit my sister, who studies there, during easter break, and at the same time I got to visit my dear friend Ruth (AKA Princess-Peachie). It was my first time meeting her, and my first time visiting another lolita, so it was rather special to me. I remember her room as a total dream *sighs* still wish I could live there (we were planning to lay down some of her jsk in her closet so I could sleep there, no one would know, hurhurhur OwO). 

We had all kinds of fun, going to a gigantic toy-store, having sushi and just watching silly cartoons and anime together. It was so much fun! ^^ I can´t wait to meet her again <3

5.May:

It was finally time to do something about that documentary project! For an entire, intense week, I was filmed several hours almost every day (which for an introvert like me is quite exhausting @_@) but we managed to pull through in the end. Imagine having someone follow you around school with a camera, even filming you getting on and off the bus?! :-P It was rather awkward....

Other than that, my dearest, best friend painted a lovely portrait of me, as a belated birthday present, and I cried ;_; <3 I got my first twin-tail wig and I wore quite a lot of lolita clothes in the weekends.

...Kinda also launched my first "teaser" on my new youtube channel....

6. June:

I coloured my hair bright, candy lilac as opposed to the blond hair I had been sporting until then. I published my first proper youtube movie to my new channel! It was about a Pinkly Ever After package I had gotten in the mail :-3. I got a handmade, one-of-a-kind dress that made me do a magical-girl transformation and turned me into Magical Princess Josephine.

I also got my very first sponsor agreement,
where I got a free pair of circle lenses that I did a review upon! ^^

7. July:

July was pretty much just work, work, WORK from day until night, so I neglected my blog quite a lot! I was so lucky as to get a summer-job at the local library again this year, so I saved up quite a lot of money! I also got the second Kyary Pamyu Pamyu CD/Photobook limited edition set during this period, which made me really happy ;v;. I discovered Bee & Puppycat as well, and became an instant fan! By the end of the month, I had planned to go to Sweden to visit my friend Emilia (AKA Pastelbat) to live with her for 12 days, including four days working with her in her co-owned maid-café on Närcon (a big anime convention in Sweden). It is an experience I will never forget, I truly had the time of my life and got to meet so many wonderful people! Everyone was so incredibly stylish and super sweet and wonderful ;v; I made so many friends!

8. August:

Nothing much happend in August. The first few days was still spent in Sweden. I wrote a lot about my trip, but after that I just worked a bit more at the library, and eventually started a new school year again. This time as a third-year, senior student!

9. September:

Ever since school started again, I was heading on a steady way downwards,
moodwise and health-wise...
...my depression got a lot worse....

I still wrote a lot about my trip to sweden during the weekends,
but hardly had the energy to dress up anymore, because of all the school work loaded on my shoulders...

10. October:

I was hospitalized for a little while, on a trial–thing, in relation to my ED. Also we had a self-portrait project at school, that I sort of missed out on. Had to do something quick, instead of my over-the-top sweet lolita plans, sadly.... 

I got my first rhapsody wig, in a pink colourway, from ebay,
and I ordered some cute new dresses that made me try out totally new styles!

 In the end I also had a mayor break-down and was made to stay home for several weeks due to my health condition.

11. November:

My breakdown lasted throughout most of november, but I somehow managed to pull together a Halloween-themed outfit in the middle of the month, even though it was to late for the actual celebration. I had mayor depression, and did not enjoy life much...

12. December:

Finally christmas-time! I am a child at heart, and christmas is my favourite time of the year. I feel like christmas is all around, through the entire month of December! I was still kind of down, and the work-load from school just grew, but somehow I was able to go through with it, attended and finished all my homework in time for christmas. During the holidays I helped with decorating and baking, and I just felt quite at ease during the first week.... until, a still lasting depression, hit quite hard right afterwards... Atleast I got to wear my very first classical lolita outfit, on christmas-eve, and also my first lolita outfit in general for several months!
I have not been dressing up due to my health-condition....

That is basically it for 2013! ^^

 I realize as I go through this list, that most the good and positive things happend during the first half of the year, while the other half just got increasingly worse as time went by :-S Right now I am not very good at all. I am depressed, and I haven´t bought any new clothing except for a few lolita things for several months, making everything in my closet really old and boring. And because my stupid phone is taking worse and worse pictures for some weird reason, I find myself also not too eager to update... A part of a good blog entry is the pictures, and whitout those its just not as nice,
in my opinion...

I guess this is a good time to start writing the ever feared 

-

New Years resolutions!:

- Buy a camera or a new mobilephone

- Buy a new computer

- Draw more

- Be happier

- Dress up more

- Wear makeup and do my hair properly more often

In regards to new years resolutions, I thought I go through the ones I made last year, 

to see how I made it with them! I did for a while, I think... mostly during the first half of the year

Last years new years resolutions:

- be happy 
was not able to do during a lot of the time

- do something for myself

I guess I sort of tried to do this a bit, atleast during the first half of the year!

 

- draw more

failed sadly >.>

 

- play more video games 

failed sadly <.<

 

- dress up a bit more

I did for a while, I think... mostly during the first half of the year

 

- update my blog with better entries

I got a lot of good entries this year, with all of the nice trips I made, and the exciting things I did! :-)

 

 

3 out of 6 it seems! 

How did it go for you, with last years resolutions?

 

I hope I will be able to sort things out somehow, and I am really sorry for neglecting this blog for so long. Life has been though lately, as you might have understood by now :-p due to my intense whining, which I appologiz for sincerly! 

Anywho, I hope everyone had a lovely christmas and a very

 

Let´s hope 2014 will be a good year with many kawaii adventures
and wonderful stories to tell in the future! ^0^

 GO GO FIGHTO EVERYONE!

I´ll see  you around!

break–down

No one likes reading "all text" posts. 

As an avid blog reader myself, I know that too much text looks a bit overpowering,
and you kinda loose interest before even starting to read what the blog entry is all about.

Well, since we´ve established that, both you (readers) and I can agree on that I won´t make this update long. I am too tired to do so anyway, so don´t worry...

If you WANT to read about my current life, please proceed,
However, if you are here only for pictures or some kind of fashion/style related input,
I can´t help you right now....This is sadly just a personal update, for reference...

As a reward, I can inform you that I will be writing a review soon,
and post some pictures of my Halloween dress that just arrived two days ago (typically)
When I´ve got the energy for it...

This past month has been a rollercoaster of ups and extreme downs, most of all extreme downs...
Ever since my little brake from school after autumn–brake, I have never really gotten "back in the game" sort of... Getting back to school again made me feel anxious and tired, and at some points I felt extremly paranoid and aggressive for no reason at all... Every little thing triggered my mood, and all I could do was hope no one would talk to me or tell me to do anything
because I was so tired I just felt like weeping...

Sometimes, I would acctually just start crying, simply from trying to
talk to someone about something totally normal! Like asking what page to read,
or making a notice of the fact that I was going to the toilet.
I felt actual psycotic at times, thinking of death and just staring blankely into the air, having to read things over and over again to at all grasp what I was doing... 

The week in the ED Phsyciatry place only made me worse... I litterary got sicker....
The whole thing made everything a lot worse than it was before. I really didn´t like the way they lead their routines around that place, and it felt like an agony to be there...

All they did was ... you know.... food....
(I am so bad ill right now I can´t even get myself to WRITE about this ...)

And other than that they just left me in my room, alone...
I only had two conversations with a phsyciatrist, the whole time... other than that everyone treated me like it was something I wanted... to be there, that is... and they treated me like everything was so natural and easy and like nothing was hard at all... I had to call my mom or text her all the time to get some positive feedback at all from being there... it was killing me... I felt like they were just observing like robots and without any kind of feelings around the situations... taking blood samples every single day, making me all dizzy and bruised, and pumping some kind of weird vitamins into my arms through plastic things connected to my veins...
and with my terrible fear of shots and everything >.< ugh

Anyway, getting home this week was kinda rough also...

I had a mental brakedown the first day back here, after getting home from school

(on wednesday, since I came back home on tuesday)

It resulted in my mom forcing me to stay home for the rest of this week,

and they called my school about everything, since it has been such a mess lately...

The meeting involved the vice–principal, the study–leader of my trade at the school,
and my teacher, and both my parents.

We talked about how much my disease is distroying my life at the moment,
and that its not correct of them to allow me into a normal school–life in my state, if this continues...

So they kinda put an out a couple of options for me, none of wich I am able to even think about right now... I am SHOCKED really... I just couldn´t stop crying:

They wanted me to get away from some classes, and only take half, and rather do everything over 

TWO YEARS O_____________O

... I am saying this right now, this is never gonna happen... NEVER!!!

The other option was to lower my workload with excepting less than absolutely perfect everything, but that is also out of the question and they know it, because I am such a perfectionist, and my disease makes me punish myself all the time to push it harder and harder and harder,
to do everything right and be perfect....

and it just gets a million times worse when I don´t.... if I don´t do that... my mind implodes

 So right now, I am just... I am burned out, to be honest... there is really nothing else to say about it.

I am anxious and tired all the time, my whole body feels like I´ve run a million miles and my head shifts from pshycotic thoughts to nothingness and emptyness, to focusing on work work work, and I... am simply having a breakdown... even as tired as I am, I still feel worthless, and like I need to work harder, and that nothing is good enough... I never dress up anymore because it makes me too cold and I am too self–concious about everything. I don´t really feel happyness, just emptyness, I never do anything because I am too tired, I simply exist, I don´t live, sitting around breathing... doing my forever ongoing routine every single day, with all the work, all the exercise and work–outs....

My life is a mess.

I am done now, I have no idea what to say....

Thanks for reading if you did

I am so sorry for dissapointing you and braking down your pictures of me as some kind of good person. I am just a destroyed person. And I am terribly afraid of everything right now... I have been keeping away from updating because of the pressure I´ve felt in relations to it, another area where I have to be perfect, have to look like people want me to look, have to look like I do...

I am just so tired, I wish I wasn´t even born... everything is falling apart, just slipping through my hands right now, I feel so small and scared...

 

 

The force of......thinking!

After long consideration, and loooong trains of thought, and not to forget mentioning huge amount of both physical and mental pain for months, and years, I have figured there is only one way for me not to die...

I have been having an increased amount of pain in my chest recently... waking up with heartpains and going to bed with heartpains... It is really scary being so short of breath and feeling so exhausted for no reason other than simply being awake...

Not that is was only that though, I have had serious issuses with compulsory needs and happenigns in my life, to the extend that it has completely taken over my life, making me force myself to do all kinds of paifull "rituals" everyday, with extreme amounts of working out, not eating etc...  I had this evil little bug in my mind that has been toturing me for almost seven years now...

It physically made me ill, it mentally made me mad and now.... I just can´t stand it...

My whole life has been dedicated to the thought of me being a worthless person, in need of punishment for not doing everything perfectly at all times, and if I couldn´t do it for a single second, I had to punish myself with more work, more training, more pain...

At the worst stage (in the most recent period of my life) I had a routine that started the second I woke up to the very last second I went to bed, only allowing me about 45 min of freetime throughout the entire day, filling up everything else with huge amounts of homework and work outs... but nothing I ever did was good enough, I was not allowed to spend time on anything else, because I was worthless...

And, after a yet another meeting about my serious condition, and talk of eventual admitting in a hospital, I suddenly felt this incredibly strong sensation, and..

it was amazing O.O

I suddenly felt like I woke up from a strong sleep that had lasted for years and years...
and I knew... it was my disease letting go... 

It hit me like a two ton rock in my stomach, I just felt this incredible feeling like "this is not me anymore!"

It is absolutely incredible, but after six years of more or less endless pain,
I feel like I am ready to start fighting this... 

It will be a long and slow battle, and I am afraid it will have tons of relapses and sessions with me getting worse... and I am sure this disease will pretty much stay with me in some kind of form my whole life...

 but I hope...

  I hope ...

I hope I will be able to atleast feel comfortable about myself one day! That, before anything else, will be my goal. My mind has been so twisted for so long... it is filled with selfhatred and thoughts about me not being worth anything, and not being good enough at anything, and for once, I would like to allow myself to be that. Good enough, that is... I feel incredibly bad just writing about it, because my disease still holds such a strong bond over me, but yeah.... I hope that I will be able to look at what I do one day and feel like its enough, and like I am proud of it or atleast pleased :-)! 

In the light of this "awakening" I have ordered some new things to try out some totally new styles! 

I felt it was time to order things again, both because it is a looong time since I last did, and because I kinda wanted to try something new, but ALSO because it´s soon time for Halloween again (and I absolutely LOVE Halloween *v*) so I needed something to wear for the occation! ^^ 

 

Anyway, made my first order ever from the online store

 ROMWE ! 

I would really reccomend taking a look at their online shop if you like cute,
alternative fashion and cool street styles! ^^  They have tons of it! 

The things I decided to get was some stuff I acctually never imagined I would fall for ;V; But yeah... It was probably time I renewed my closet, and tried out something totally new!

Here is my new Halloween dress! ^^

(direct link to the actual dress)

I have loved this design ever since I saw pictures of it on tumblr last year, so I am really happy that I was able to get my hands on it! ^^ I hope my order arrives in time for halloween, and that it will look good on me ;V; hehe... I am a bit nervous about the open back thingie,
but I hope I will have the confidence to wear it anyway!

And this is the second dress I got!

(direct link to the actual dress)

I just totally fell in love with this dress immediately when I saw it, and really... it is like nothing I own from beforehand, so it will be something totally new for me!
I think it kinda looks like something casual from Juliette Et Justine! ^^

I really like the design however ;V; Also hoping it will suit me,
and that I am able to dress it up in a nice kind of way! :-)

Atleast it will give me a nice opportunity to wear some lovely golden accessories and details >v<! <3
I allready have tons of ideas * v*

 

So yeah, that was just a small update for now.... but I feel like it is definitely one of the most important text posts I have ever made in my life. I hope you guys will respond in the comment box below, I would love to hear your thoughts upon the matter. 

Let´s try to be positive everyone, and focus on the nice things in life :)
It is ok to be sick once in a while, but when it totally defines your life an almost kills you...
it shouldn´t be ok like that... Wow, I still have to force myself to even write that, since my head tells me it´s acctually right that it is that way... 

I hope I will be able to work with this... 

I am really scared and nervous about it all, but I will try!

For now, that is all I´ve got.

Thank you all for reading this far!

My Swedish fairytale: Day 12-13 – crafting and traveling

I am going to be frank to begin with,
there are no photographic evidence of these two last days sadly >.<

So if you are up for a wall of text, get ready to read the closing chapter of my travel to Sweden this summer! (Haha, I can´t believe it´s september allready XD)

The day after the Victorian picnic was yet another "chill day".
We had invited Saga (Irodohieru) and Amanda (Lolitaland) over for some tea and crafting, proper sunday style with no makeup or anything, just our bare faces in snuggly clothes, bendt eagerly over a ton of beads, clay and glitter. It was indeed one of the most cosy days we had together. 

I finally got to finish making the items I started earlier during the week (you can read about it HERE), Emilia drew designs for her upcoming items for a japanese flee-marked, Amanda worked on some beautiful clay roses, and Saga kept us all company with her wonderful being and fun comments ;v;

There is nothing better than friends hanging out like that. Relaxed, with good music and fun activities <3 Sometimes the little things are the best ones <3

 

 

After spending almost all day crafting, we realized it was getting a bit late, and we needed to start dinner. Saga and Amanda had to leave, to reach their seperate trains home,
so they couldn´t stay longer :-(

We had almost nothing in the house, so we decided to make a really simple dish ;v;

Omu-rice! And truly, it was really simple, as we only had oninons and rice in the mix XD haha.
But we put in loads of ketchup, and we had mozzarella cheese in the omelette, with spices,
so it tasted really good acctually! ^^

I was the cook of this particuilar meal, as I had seen it been done before,
even though I hadn´t made it myself ever >.< I am glad Emilia seemed to like it though ^^
It made me happy!

We spendt the rest of the evening watching movies and finishing off the candy we bought when we went to the cinema earlier that week. We started off by watching a movie called "Stardust"
(that I reccomended we should watch) and went on with "The last unicorn" afterwards ^^
None of us had seen it before, so we decided to just go for it!
I would reccomend both of the movies, though "the last unicorn" certainly is a very peculiar video, and really different from anything I imagined it to be >v>"""

At that time we had finished watching that also, it was around 2 am or so,
and we just decided it was time for bed.

On the very last day, or acctually,  just the traveling day, we had plenty of time before I was going to leave. I took a good walk in the sunny weather, we had delicious baguettes with mozzarella and ham for lunch, and I spendt just about an hour packing everything in my suitcase, before we were ready to go. I think we left for the trainstation around 5 pm, since my plane was going to deport at 8 pm. It was quite a while to travel, but by the time we got there,
I still had over and hour left of waiting time luckily.

Now, I must say that our parting was a rather dramatic one at that >.<

I found out my suitcase had wastly exceeded the limited weight allowed, so I found myself having to pay a nasty extra–fee to make up for it! (I found it so weird, since I almost hadn´t brought anything new!) I was so mad and frustrated I just couldn´t help but cry.
I simply rushed around after that, trying to find out where I was going, and I could only give Emilia a quick hug before I had to leave in a rush. I was really scared of the extra fee I had payed and how it would affect my credit card, as I thought perhaps I would be unable to get home, due to the lack of money! (yes, I have very little money, and yes it was a big fee)... I completely panicked and called my dad as soon as I had passed the security area, to ask him about what I should do.

I was really afraid that he would yell at me and be really mad, but I was happily surprised at how calm and nice he was about it. He helped calm me down and told me everthing was going to be fine, and that it could have happend to anyone. When we had talked for a while, my pulse had reached a regular count and I could breath out like normal. I am so happy everything worked out fine ; _;
I was so scared!

After that, it was just travel, travel, travel, by planes and a busse until I finally came home,

around 2 am in the middle of the night. My father picked me up at the busstation, and by 3 am we were home and I once more let myself fall into my wonderful, wonderful bed in my own bedroom. 

Is there a more fantastic feeling than that?

I just wanted to sleep at once,  for it to become tomorrow really quickly. I was really looking forward to unpacking my bag and showing everything I´d bought to my parents as soon as possible.

(And you will be able to see more of that soon in upcoming updates ;-3)

I am pretty sure I fell asleep with a smile on my face :-) 

With that, my Swedish fairytale was over, and though I was sad, it felt wonderful to be home again, with all the great memories that I had left from the trip. Being able to meet so many people that I´ve only seen pictures of, or chatted with on the internet before, was really mindblowing to me.
It is always surreal when stuff like that happens in real life... 

I just hope I managed to leave such a positive and good impression on them as they did on me.
I can´t wait to meet everyone again, and set out on a new set of amazing adventures ;v; 

Please await my return! ^0^

Only the future can tell what´s ahead!

Thank you for reading once again, and I hope you´ll keep tuned ;-)

See yah!

My Swedish fairytale: Day 1 - Traveling

There has been several pictures and little inklings as to what the past two weeks have been about in my life, but as there is still tons of details left to be revealed, that none of you know nothing about, I can just say one thing: 

Lets get to it!

To begin with, I just want to mention some things as a start off! ^^ This will be a series where I tell you about my adventures from day to day, but as some days might not have to many happenings in them, I might add together some of them so you guys won´t have to read
tons of stuff that might not be all that interesting ^^"

Several months ago, I started discussing with Emilia (Pastelbat) about how cool it would be to acctually meet eachother! We have been chatting for a long time, and we´ve become quite good friends I would say :) We enjoy eachothers company! ^^ So when I mentioned I might be able to come to Sweden this summer, we were both really exited! We started planning right away!

I said I had to work up until the 25th of July, and then Emilia told me that was the first day of a biiig Swedish Convention called Närcon (we are talking 5000 people... 5000 attendees, appearantly the biggest convention in Scandinavia from now on O.o)! She was going to work there with a maid-café she is co-leader in, and she mentioned how cool it would be if I was able to attend it also! Maybe even working together with them :) I was so honoured and overjoyed that she wanted me to join the maids, that I couldn´t possibly refuse it! So if any of you guys remember me asking weird questions on tumblr about maid-outfits and cute japanese names that would fit me, you now know the reason! There was just one problem, as I was surposed to work up until then, and I would need to arrive atleast one day before the whole thing to make it in time >.<! 

Luckily, my boss is great, and let me off one day early! ;v; yay! 

So yeah, we started planning even more, now that it was so definite that I was going!
I ordered the plane tickets and decided on staying for a full 12 days! 

So much time, we could have loads of fun! The convention would last for 4 days, so I would have 8 days after, to just stay with Emilia ^^ (since she was kind enough as to invite me to stay at her home with her ;A;)

The only stupid thing about my planetickets, is that my traveling schedule was rather.... tiresome!

To put it like this, I woke up around 2 am on the 24th of July, to get ready and travel to my nearby busstation (which is about half an hour away), where I at 3:20 had to take a bus to the airport, which is two hours away, and after that I had to take a plane around 6:30 or 7 am,
in which I arrived in Oslo around 8:30

.... and then the waiting begun.... 10 whole hours of it.... yeah, I kinda died >_>

I took my time and rather slowly worked my way through every single shop in the airport, and still only managed to spend about 2 hours on that... so I played my DS, read my book, listened to music, and simply tried to keep awake the rest of the time ^^" ehehe

When the clock finally hit 18:30 and my plane took of for Sweden, my heart was going doki doki all over the place! >v< I was so nervous omg!

We had initially planned for Emilia to come pick me up at Arlanda (the airport in Sweden where I was going to land) but since she had to help prepare the maidcafé, I was able to meet her friend, Amanda (Lolitland) instead! ^^  It was so precious, I felt all full of "squee" when I had finally got my luggage, and stepped into the entry hall, where Amanda sat with this huuuge heartshaped sign, that read "Josephine" with pretty decorations all around it ;V; I felt like crying really, if it wasn´t for that I at the same time felt far to sleepy to think straight xD Amanda was such a sweetheart, It felt like I had met a cross between a disney-princess and a sugary pink glitter-fairy! > ///> I felt like a slob, in my comfy clothes and sleepy hairstyle from all the traveling ^^" ehehe (kinda wanted to dig a hole and dissapear into it xD)

 Look at this cute thing she made me ;v;

We waited until the time was 21:45 pm to take the bus to the convention, which would take another 4 hours of traveling, but luckily, we got good seats at the back of the bus, where we could put our bags down and rather just curl up and sleep (or doze off, I can´t remember much of it to be honest), while being absolutely freezing (both because the bus was freezing, and because we were both super tired) before we finally got to our destination around 2 am. We waited even longer, got picked up by Emilia and her friends in a car, drove a bit to the school, where the convention was held, and by the time we had
finally brushed our teeth, they had showed me the maid-café location,
we had figured out what sleeping hall we were sleeping in, picked out our pajamas,
and got our blankets on the inflatable madrass, it was around 4 am.... 

so yeah, traveling to Sweden, from Norway took 26 hours in total....
and I just collapsed in bed = V= hehehe

 

I was quite excited about the next day, when the convetion was going to start! We had to wake up around 8 am though, so I can´t deny that I kinda started crying, just from the exhaustion I felt from it all up until then >_> 

 

Anywho, that is another story, 

until next time! Keep tuned for more! ;v;